Open Letter
to: J.W. Ehrenfels
The author of the book “Fireflies in the Shadow of the Sun”
Website: http://www.fireflysun.com/index.php
Article: “The Shadow DSM”
Psychology Suffers from Professional Analogue of Own Disorder at: I
a Nutshell http://www.fireflysun.com/book/borderline.php
Foreword: By Leon Rappoport, Ph.D., Social Psychology: http://www.fireflysun.com/book/foreward.php
There are many responses to the subject from psychologist around the
world on the Yahoo forum subject "shadowpsychology" .
Letter:
Dear Wyatt,
You apologize for all the unwanted attention many receive. I welcome
the chance to bring awareness to the oblivious, because I have had enough
of the stifling silence.
I received 30 minutes ago the link to your website and screamed loudly:
YES, YES and again YES.
You reveal what I have known for nearly 13 years and fought like a lonely
soldier in a battlefield against raging "experts".
I read your interview with Moyer and would like to congratulate you
for not compromising your work as the publishers requested.
In my search for a publisher for my childhood abuse documentary, I received
128 "no thank-you's." Many left hemisphere explanations for
not publishing such "reality", were given. In reality, publishers
are not interested in bringing awareness to a painful reality that millions
of others have experienced and many more are experiencing right now
in their childhood. Publishers prefer keeping their audience unaware,
providing instead the most unreal junk, which helps keeping the reader
in a non-feeling stage of their own experience: in other words, "repressed".
It is much easier to make money off the oblivious and the mentally controlled.
This same domination I found among psychologists, psychiatrist, and
therapists.
At last I self published, but was taken advantage of by an editor who
destroyed the content of my manuscript, telling me he is the expert
and knows what the reader needs. I found out too late that the content
of my documentation had triggered the editor, a person in total denial
of abuse and reality. At the end, the print of the first five hundred
copies of my book were a complete misprint and the physical book itself
fell apart after opened a few times.
Nevertheless, I am beyond my fight for publishing my book and I am rewriting
at the moment, as time permits me. Although it is not perfect, my book
is now on the internet for free, and many adults who were abused in
childhood can read it and feel validated.
The injured integrity of a human being has taken me in a total different
direction. I learned about the need for real healing from 1500 people
who wrote to me. By reading my personal story, they established trust
and felt that they will not be betrayed again if they are asking me
for help.
My personal horrifying experience with cognitive therapy shoed me the
new dominator, the unaware and unhealed therapists, the ones who are
still carrying the pain and effects of their own early childhood trauma.
This was confirmed in over the half the people who contacted me. These
people cry out for empathy, validation, and are asking for help in their
unbearable, mental pain, and receive no more than antidepressants, and
learn how to repress further. Nothing has changed for them in many years
in therapy, except they are now dependent on the therapist for further
instructions on how to repress new, upcoming flashbacks and triggers.
Finally, in 2000, I established the website, "Adults Abused as
Children Worldwide". Soon, we will begin with discussions and a
forum where people are allowed to express their pain without being told
that they must fit into the frame of modern money-making psychology.
In my opinion, psychology treatment should only be conducted by people
who are not only aware of their own trauma, but have healed it sufficiently
to have enough integrity not to stifle a needy person with their own
limitations, their non-addressed trauma.
I am not a psychologist, (I never finished my education), but what I
know today comes from working through my psychological trauma and becoming
an empathetic person to peoples' needs, a person who understands the
pain millions are carrying with them.
As I found out, the majority of psychologists I have contacted are not
even aware of their own needs, their trauma, and project their limitations
on the helpless who are in pain. How they can become helpers, a provider
or fulfiller of the need of others? How can they validate and empathize
if their needs for empathy and validation are not fulfilled. Left hemisphere
knowledge by itself, (studying psychology and displaying the arrogance
of the degree) cannot heal a right hemisphere injury.
Before I close, I would like to ask you the question, I have been asked
many times: "Where can people go who experience childhood trauma
and suffer as adults, the nearly paralyzing effects? Whom can they trust?
Where can they find a psychologist who is interested in healing the
pain, without pushing their hidden agenda on the vulnerable?"
To write about my personal experience with therapists, and how others
were treated, would fill a couple hundred pages. I am open for discussion
on this subject and welcome ALL comments.
Kind regards, Sieglinde Alexander
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